Shalom,
I know, I know. It has been a long time. I am really running out of excuses.
I just want to give you a small update about work.
So it has been 9 month now and I am really into the work routine. I even came to work last week, without having to.
The staff and me are acting like a big family now. Mainly that is because of my Hebrew skills. I can speak vey good now, so there is nearly no miscommunication between me and the nurses. So it happens that we talk about politics, personal experiences and thoughts. The conversations now are real and that makes the work more familiar.
My tasks didn't changed that much. I mainly clean beds. A lot of beds. Today was the worst day, on which I had to clean 25 beds. I hate beds. Furthermore, I refill the equipment, run for the nurses through the whole hospital, share food etc. This work really annoys me and I can't wait to quit it. I know I am there to help and I really help them, but I have the feeling, that, just with this work, I do nothing for myself. I really just stop sometimes and have to remind myself, why exactly I am doing this. I know why I am doing it and I still want to do it. Such a primitive work just demotivates sometimes. But, I also work more directly with the patients. I am allowed to clean the patients, change diapers, make ECGs all the time and help the nurses to put the IV-Line. That doesn't sound that special, but these are always an Enjoyment. I can speak with the children and parents, have an active social interaction and that is just more beautiful than cleaning beds. I do not like cleaning beds, did I mentioned that?
Also, I really gained the trust of everybody in the department. Nurses let me accept new patients, they are trying to explain me everything and they trust me blindly. Also the doctors are really into helping me and teaching me. If they are talking about a patients, they are immediately switching to English, when I come by. They ask me actively to help, so I do not have to ask them anymore. They let me do some medical stuff, and they invite me to some operations. I really saw some interesting and some breathtaking surgeries now, which is really enriching. Because of that, I learn way more, then at the beginning, and gives me my motivation to continue.
It is also a nice feeling, that I do not have to proof myself anymore. I can be more flexible and relaxed at work, without feeling bad about it.
I make a lot of music with the clowns, which is not just nice for the kids, also for me.
In the end I have to say, that the work itself doesn't motivates me that much anymore, I am just sick of cleaning and refilling and cleaning and refilling etc. But, because of the reactions to my department and the chances they are offering me, I still enjoy working there. I think, I just have to focus myself more on that part.
Thanks for ready and Lehitraot,
Samuel E. Kern
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